Early Birthday present......

Look at this beauty. I designed it myself, and by that i mean picked out colors and fabric. But still i had no idea how it was going to turn out, and i LOVE it. Even my dad said "thats totally a tiffany table" hahaha its true i know what i like. Greg paid for it for my birthday, he said he really likes it and i did a good job!!!

Paxton's 1st Birthday

It was my monkeys 1st birthday yesterday, yes he is already 1!!!

 Birthday decorations, most of them i made.

 Greg made his smash cake, so cute.

 More decorations.

 We did a banana split bar. (all the stuff isn't out yet)

 A final shot of the decorations.

 Birthday boy ready to party.

 He was in a really good mood.

 opening some gifts.

 some of the guests.

 opening more gifts.

 and more!!!!

 his cake, ready for him to blow out the candle.

 He got really shy when we sang happy birthday to him. ( i see ellie)

 blowing out his candle.

 checking out his cake.

 Not sure what to think of it.....

 but figured it out and LOVED IT!!!

It was such a fun birthday party with all the family. He was so goofy and funny the entire time he loved everything and put on quite a show!!! (unlike paisley who cried her entire 1st birthday)

Christmas Pics

Ok These pictures were taken before we went to a family party over the weekend. Greg thought pax looked so cute so he decided to take his picture, and look what this little stud did for his photo shoot. Granted he had just woken up from a nap so he was in a good mood. I have to admit i have some ADORABLE kids ;)

Christmas 2012

I spoke too soon......

I think i jinxed myself when i wrote that post about nobody getting sick anymore :(

I wasn't feeling well on Sunday morning, a little sore throat and overall just felt crappy, but as the day went on i started feeling a little better, i just thought i would wake up the next morning feeling better, WRONGO. ( i know that's not a real word) I woke up Monday morning not being able to breathe, like i literally couldn't take a deep breath in or out, i was panicked, my chest was so tight i thought i was going to die, no joke. So greg took me to the insta care, and they rushed me right back, my heart rate was really high, the machine was beeping like crazy, but my oxygen level was 100% (that did not make sense to me). I had no voice it was really hard to talk, because i couldn't breathe. The doctor listened to my lungs and was concerned because he couldn't hear crackling or anything like that, but he said my lungs were not working properly. He had me get a chest x ray which didn't show anything, and he had me do a breathing treatment, (the lovely photo above, thanks to greg wanting to document this moment) After the breathing treatment i wasn't doing any better, which he thought i should have been. 

So that's when he came in and said those scary words that made me cry hysterical "you might have a blood clot in your lungs" WHAT??? that was the last thing that was on my mind, a blood clot in my lungs? He told us to go the the E.R. to get it checked out. 

Need i remind you it is 5:00 pm  on Christmas eve my kids are at grandmas house waiting for us to go to our yearly Christmas eve party, i was devastated that i was going to spend Christmas eve in the E.R. but at the same time i was scared to death, what if he was right, what if i had a blood clot in my lungs, i could DIE. so my fear took over, and to the E.R. i went. My mom, Greg, My mother in law, My sister, Etc. kept telling me i didn't have one, and that i was just sick with a really bad cold, but i couldn't stop thinking about it, i HAD to get it checked out for my sanity. 

When i got to the E.R. my heart rate was still really high, so they rushed me back, before i could even change into my gown, people were in the room taking my shirt off and hooking me up to a E.K.G machine, getting a iv hooked up, it was happening so fast, i had nurses and doctors in the room all asking me questions at the same time, to say the least i was FREAKING OUT. luckily after some oxygen, and iv fluids i started to calm down. My heart rate started to go down as well. 

After being in the E.R. for 3 hours my blood test came  back normal and i didn't have a blood clot in my lungs. WHEW, thank god i felt my body get so much more relaxed after that. I was going to be OK. but the big question still was not answered why was my chest so tight and i couldn't breath, why was my heart rate so high? Well they didn't have an answer, they told me to go home and treat my symptoms. The Doctor ended with saying he thinks i had a panic attack, due to the fact that i couldn't breathe. which he was probably right, i could feel my heart racing. so home we went at 9:00 pm. missing the Christmas eve party :( It was a roller coaster of emotions.

Well here i am the day after Christmas, not doing much better. I still have allot of tightness in my chest, and my throat hurts SO BAD, it hurts to swallow my own spit, so my conclusion is i have a really bad cold, and my chest is just full of gunk. I have been taking musinex and i have coughed up allot of flem,  hoping this helps soon. If i don't feel better soon, i will probably go back to the insta care and see if its strep or something.

That was one of the most scariest moments in my life, i'm so glad i'm OK. Even thought i felt like crap on Christmas day, i was grateful i wasn't in the hospital. Its just crazy to me that Christmas is one day out of the month and i get horribly sick THAT DAY, sucks. 

December so far.....

Well the month of December has been pretty crazy already. The week after thanksgiving my kids started getting sick, needless to say we took 3 trips to the doctors and both kids took antibiotics and pax ended with croup which needed a steroid shot. The kids were sick for 3 weeks straight, me and greg got NO sleep for a long time, we were on edge. but don't worry all is well this week the kids are back to normal and sleeping again, Thank god!!! 

I have been a wreck as well, i got a horrible ear infection while the kids were sick too, my poor husband. And just when i healed from that, i got a huge boil on my eye that hurt like a mother and made my eye swell shut, it was just glorious.

Now we are the week before Christmas im pretty sure we are all done with nasty illness around here for a little while.

Luckily paisley was feeling better just in time for her very first dance performance. She did amazing, i really didn't even think she would go on stage, but not only did she go on stage, she totally did her dance, i was crying the entire time watching her, i was so proud of her. 

allot of people don't know paisley is allot like her mommy, we are super shy and scared of EVERYTHING, its really hard for us to get paisley to do anything out of her comfort zone. so that's why i was so emotional, im so happy for her to make friends and memories, i hope shes not like me and is too scared to do anything and holds back. I have allot of regrets in life because i was just too scared, seriously im a sad person lol

After all my sickness i needed new hair!!!

                                                 Aunt tess at paisleys first dance performance

                                                                   proud mommy!!!

Uncle mat and paisley

                           paisleys dance class before they went on stage to perform. (its not all the girls)

Look at my two adorable kids

Pax man feeling better finally

                                          This kid is climbing on EVERYTHING, he is hard work.

Thanksgiving 2012

We went to Franklin Idaho this year for thanksgiving to be with Greg's side of the family. We got to meet new  baby cousin kwintzy, she is a doll. of course the usual playing with cousins and eating yummy thanksgiving food. We got home and watched Christmas movies the rest of the night. our life is boring with two kids lol i would love to go black Friday shopping, but Greg had work the next day so i couldn't go.