Saying goodbye is never easy.

Its been a rough couple weeks, My cousin Danny last week committed suicide, its such a hard thing to wrap your mind around, i know he was struggling but it always makes you feel so bad knowing somebody you loved was hurting so much. His funeral was really tough, it was so emotionally draining, he left behind his 12 year old son, every time i looked over at him it just made me sick to think what he must be going through. 

Then just as we were getting over the rough weekend my sweet grandpa passed away on Monday in his sleep. I know ever since my grandma passed away my grandpa was so heartbroken, it makes me happy to know they are together again, but it also is going to be hard to not have him here anymore. He had such a kind heart and was always helping so many people. He is going to be sorely missed, we love you grandpa! 

This picture was taken right after my grandpa flipped everybody the bird. That was so grandpa!!! This was also the last time i saw him, i'm glad my kids got to see him as well.

"Loved by All"
Delbert Earl Townsend passed away peacefully in his sleep on August 13, 2013. He was born July 29, 1927 in Murray, Utah to Delbert H. and Theata Hughes Townsend. He was a life-long resident of Murray where he shared many fond memories alongside his friends. He played a "mean" trumpet and was called upon to lead the pep band at many high school functions. He served as the student body president of Murray High School in 1945.
He joined the Navy in 1945 and was primarily stationed in San Francisco and San Diego, CA. He served as a missionary in the Texas/Louisiana Mission for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints from 1948 to 1950. He married Marguerite Bean Townsend in the Salt Lake Temple on June 20, 1951 and they were blessed with six children. He graduated from the University of Utah in 1953 with a degree in Business.
In 1957, his dream came true when he was able to purchase a men's clothing store in downtown Murray. He promptly remodeled and renamed the store, Mr. Debb's Clothes for Men, which he operated until 1973 when he reluctantly closed the doors for the last time. Many of his customers followed him as he became manager of Arthur Frank in the Cottonwood Mall.
He was a faithful and active member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. He served in several different Bishoprics over a 15-year period and was then called as Bishop of the Murray 3rd Ward, where he served faithfully for seven years. He served in the high council under two separate stake presidents and then served as Stake Mission Leader for four years. He and Marge were called as LDS Employment missionaries and then served an 18-month mission to the Utah State Prison and Half-Way House. He served as an ordinance worker in the Jordan River Temple for over five years. He also served on the Murray School Board.
He is survived by his children, Terrie Butler, Rob (Manuela), Cindy (Phil) Talbot, Steve (Cindy) and Ted; 15 grandchildren; and 16 great-grandchildren. He was preceded in death by his wife, Marge; his parents; siblings; one son, Chris; and one grandson, Eric.

Paxton's follow up appointment

Pax had his follow up appointment with Dr. Cowley yesterday. That's his cardiologist that diagnosed him with coarctation of the aorta. I was a little nervous to see how his aorta was healing, there is a slight possibility that when the aorta heals it could close off a little and he would need to go in with a balloon and open his aorta up. When we first got there Dr. Cowley wanted pax to get a chest x-ray to make sure his chest was clear, and also if we looked really closely you could very lightly see a little bit of his aorta where the repair was done. Pax did amazing during his chest x-ray, which i wasn't nervous about just because hes had them done before and it doesn't hurt or bother him in any way. Then the nurse checked his blood pressure which was really good, She made a comment that when you look back in his chart they didn't even put a number down for his blood pressure because they couldn't get one. (the first time he went to the cardiologist) and then when you looked at it while he was hospitalized for his surgery it was a little on the high side. So it was a relief to see a good number for his blood pressure. Then after Dr. Cowley came in and showed us Paxton's chest x-ray he said it looked really good, and that his aorta was healing very well, he was pleased to see how nice the aorta looked, he had one patient that was about paxtons age that got a really bad repair done on his aorta and that meant they had to go back in and fix it, he said the surgeon did a fabulous repair and is pretty confident that he wont have any problems. He was happy to see a really good pulse in his leg and that his feet weren't all sweaty and cold any more. Overall pax is doing wonderful!!!!

 He said the surgeon was so shocked by how small of an opening pax had in his aorta he sent Dr. Cowley a text message of the picture he showed us after his surgery was done, it was pretty shocking to see it. It just makes me so much more grateful for all the Doctors in paxtons life that have saved him. We have another follow up in 6 months and they will do a EKG and a full work up, and if everything looks good from there then he will just have a yearly check up with Dr. Cowley.

I still cant believe what my baby went through, it doesn't feel real to me. I still have flash backs of pax in the hospital with all the tubes and wires and every time i cry when i think about it. He is such a strong boy and amazes me everyday with how well he has handled everything. Im so extremely grateful for doctors they are amazing people!!!

He was so good for Dr. Cowley and even played with him.

 Big Sis listening to paxton's heart.